Back to fasting: I ate fried chips and a cheesecake yesterday. I told myself that unlike Daniel, I will now be eating diary and that chips are made from potato (although the restaurant probably did not fry them in coconut oil, I decided that I was not going to obsess over this). Continue reading The 2-Week Slump
God is not against sex, just sex outside of marriage. God invented sex in full knowledge what it entails and of all its trimmings – the heightened sense of pleasure and intimacy that it evokes (well, if done right) and so forth. But God intended and still intends for sex to happen only within a marriage. Now before you pass me off has ‘frigid’ or “one … Continue reading Let’s Talk About Sex
I have not been in the mood to write for what seems like forever, which is ironic because writing, for me is an opportunity to release some of the hurt, frustrations etc that I have internalised and stewed over day after day. During rocky times, my desire and interest in a lot of things just flatlines. I am not productive. I can say that I … Continue reading Distant and angry at God…..finally hope creeps in
One thing I am noticing is the need for validation from people regardless of whether we are close or strangers. This is not something new but it is something that I have momentarily succeeded in suppressing but ultimately failed to conquer over the years. God, thank You for making this issue increasingly evident to the point that I can no longer ignore it. Help me … Continue reading A moment of Spontaneous Reflection
Before I knew it, I was 3 vlogs deep, with the hot water running as I only planned to play the song whilst having a shower. Then came the light bulb moment💡: I paused the video and said “wait a minute what did I actually come on here to do?” Continue reading Distractions
It is currently 5pm. (by the time this post is published, it will be later)
I got out of bed over an hour ago. Binge watched NCIS from 6:30am, was in and out of sleep until I got up. Continue reading Getting out of bed
James 5:13 – 18
13Are any of you suffering hardships?
You should pray.
Are you happy? You should sings praises
James does not beat around the bush in this scripture, or in the rest of the book of James. I like him for that. I really, really struggled with reading my bible even after taking the steps to get to know God through His Word. But when I came across the book of James, I could not stop reading it. His words are straight to the point. They were beautifully harsh and gave me a wake up call on a lot the things that I was doing or had done that did not please God. It was like I was reading my own diary and the harsh reality was shocking. A veil was being lifted and I could see my faults. When you have lived in the World for so long, everything becomes normalised.
Normal for me was drinking hard liquor on a train so I would be buzzed before arriving to an event….
For now, I will just say that I was and still am grateful to James for his sobering words.